Today I have been thinking a lot about how I need to get out of my comfort zone and share my ever slowly moving project which is this website. What do I fear?
Judgement - We all create a façade of sorts in our social media world. I am trying to be as genuine as possible, but I am not. I need to be more transparent and talk about the struggles and show the truths of my weight loss journey.
Disappointment - I don't want my family to be disappointed by my words or my journey. Getting on social media or the web for all to see is a gamble. I don't want my family to get into my head and keep me from accomplishing what I desire.
Uniqueness - I am very aware my weight loss journey is not a one of kind goal. At the start of the new year everyone has the same journey. Why am I any different than the million other women on Instagram sharing their journey?
I am not an author - My story is my labor of love. I am just story telling for my enjoyment. I fear everyone will think they are tapping into my inner desires and weird mind. Absolutely not! I love romance novels. I feel I can pen a story and share it. Half the fun is seeing people figure out what is real and what is not. The grammar is bad. The writing is bad. But there is a story and if garners any attention, I will gladly work with a publisher and polish it up for the mighty dollar. One can wish and hope.
Scared - I am scared to fail. I have invested some time and money into this venture. I am planning new things, and getting ideas from all places. This will be a labor of love. I just don't want to disappoint anyone. Especially myself.
I tried to turn down the voices of negativity today. I heard people talking about writing and how they felt they could not be a writer. Things about how the story needed to be focused and outlined and perfected before putting it out for all to see. I felt as if they were talking about me or what I published. Again this could be me being overly sensitive about my labor of love and the obvious issues my story contains. I want to reiterate I am not a writer. I am a story teller.
Deep down, I need to be a little less sensitive about myself and what people say around me. Because, IT IS NOT ALWAYS ABOUT ME. I am working on this issue, I promise.
If I invited you to come to my website it is because I know you and love you. I am asking you to learn more about me and my true self. All of me. This past year was a year of reflection and understanding of who I don't want to be. This year is about being the best me. In saying that this website will improve. If you have happened to 'Google' Teltschik and found my little website, please enjoy.
For the troller's who found me and seek to intimidate me. Yes, it bother's me, but no, I will not let this hinder me from my success. Teltschik Like It Is, and Goodnight.
One last thing. A friend told me she noticed my body looked different. She said she saw changes in my belly. I, myself noticed it two days ago. It thrilled me to know that someone else saw. Thank you my dear friend, you know who you are, and you made my day, probably my week. I love you.
I am proud, excited, and touched by your blog. It takes a lot to share something so personal. I pray that you get more out of this than you expected!!!