Today was a difficult day. I didn't know exactly how to handle the first day of a NEW YEAR. The pressure to make sure I made the most of this day got the better of me. My husband asked when I was going to the gym. I probably overreacted and jumped his shit for being so judgmental. I had intentions of cleaning my house and cooking for the weekend. We had a few words and he left alone to the gym.
I found a movie I wanted to watch, The Color Purple, and proceeded to cook and enjoy my morning. After a couple of hours he returned home and requested I sit and talk with him. He apologized for coming off pushy in the beginning. He has no idea how the inner workings of this latina are managed. This morning was a perfect example. We talked and he finally understood I wanted to get my house in order and then I can proceed with the outside world.
I cooked a delicious herb chicken breast dish. Chicken breast, red bell pepper, broccoli, heavy herbs. The dish was first time creation. Quite a winner. This can be seen on my Instagram page teltschik_like_it_is . This page has just been created so I kindly ask for your patience...I am working on it 😉
Today we went to World Market to look at full length mirrors. I noticed I didn't have one and need one. I would really like to show my weight loss progress in my photos and a mirror would aid my situation. We did settle on one and tomorrow we are going to go pick it up.
After my spat with my better half, I wanted to drive to Sonic and purchase the largest Coke I could get and guzzle it all down, and maybe even buy another for later. I had cut off soda a few weeks ago. A promised GOD if I would never drink another Coke if he would provide me something precious to me. I intend to keep my promise. In cutting out Coke, I am decreasing the units of insulin per meal. This is a win win situation.
I find myself emotional today. I worry about failing and how this is all going to work. I know I will have failing days and I will have winners in the mix. I don't want to disappoint anyone or myself for making bad choices or for screwing it all up. Someone told me they were proud of me. I don't hear that very often. Knowing they are pleased about this journey makes my world a happier one.
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