Tommy pulls back and now his hands are cupping my face. He is searching my eyes because they are shimmering with tears.
"Your first kiss? You have never been kissed? Ever?" He whispers these questions almost scared to hear his own words. I pull out of his hands and lean up again the headboard.
"Yes, my first kiss ever. I told you I am different. I live a sheltered life and have been guarded by my family, friends and myself. I have been waiting for a special person. I thought it was going to happen on our first date, but you kept giving me mixed signals and it never happened. We spend so much time together as friends and I didn't want to assume you cared more than that. I love being around you and we became instant friends. We talk everyday, all the time. I felt placed in the friend zone, but you give mix signals when we are together and around other people. My friends see it, and so do your buddies. You chase all of them off even when it's innocent. Then tonight I thought for sure you were going to kiss me when the tension was building. Here in this bed you were kissing my neck and dear God, I thought I was going to lose my virginity before experiencing my first kiss. I didn't want to tell you it was my first kiss. I feel ridiculous. I am eighteen years old and have never had my first kiss. All of this sounds so immature." I rub my eyes and face and look at Tommy and exhale in exhaustion.
"We both have been on a road of uncertainty. But I know I want to keep going. I want to see where this goes. As I said earlier, I am realizing there is a lot more I want. I know I am not alone in this. You are a true friend and I have struggled crossing the line. I didn't do a good job of staying on my side of the bed, at all. I need to be better at expressing my feelings with you. This goes for you too." He looks at me with those dreamy green eyes. I look at him and roll my eyes in slight frustration,
"Tommy when are you going to kiss me? How much longer do I have to wait?" I move to grab the pillow to cover my face in embarrassment, but he grabs before I do and throws it to the foot of the bed to keep me from hiding my already red face. He pulls me towards him and fast, cupping my face with his hands and he kisses me.
His lips are soft but firm against mine. He tilts his head and presses his lips completely against my lips. I relax and place my hand on his arm holding my face. He slightly opens is mouth and runs his tongue against the opening of my mouth. I am no expert on kissing but I am feeling this kiss all over my body. His kiss deepens and he is now exploring my mouth with his tongue. He is humming against my lips. I think he is enjoying this as much as I am. Now he is slowly peck kissing my lips and pulls away and looks at me. All I can think is 'Tommy Nichols just kissed me. Tommy gave me my first kiss and it was an amazing kiss!
He leans in, and we are now forehead to forehead and we are locked at the eyes.
"Veronica, thank you for choosing me to be your first kiss. It is a memory that will live in me forever." He kisses my forehead and says, "Always." He then fixes the blankets and pillows on the bed and waits for me to get under the covers and settled for sleep. He follows suit and turns off the light. I hug his torso and place my head on his chest and he wraps his arms around me.
Once relaxed I whisper, "Always and forever." He hears my declaration and squeezes me closer.
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