We drove back to his house in silence. The weird vibe didn't end there. I grabbed my overnight bag and fled to the bathroom to shower and get dressed for bed. When I finally walked out of the bathroom, he was sitting in the living room as if he were waiting for his turn to use the bathroom.
I placed my bag on the chair in his bedroom and climbed into the bed and covered myself as if to shield me. I heard Tommy's footsteps and they stopped halfway into the room.
"Ronnie, do you need another blanket or an extra pillow?" I am still faced looking at the wall and giving him my back.
"No, thank you, I am comfortable." I hear him leave and enter the bathroom. I can hear the shower start up and then I hear the shower curtain close.
Now all I hear are Jacob's words. I am also fighting back tears. Deep down I know I am destined to hurt by Tommy. But I am in control and I dictate what is best for me and if I position myself to be hurt by another person. After my talk with Jacob he walked me over to the kitchen for some water and some food. He said I wasn't a drinker and that Tommy probably wouldn't appreciate me getting sick here at the house. We talked about our classes and eventually parted ways, but not without him giving me a bear hug. I hugged him back and gave him a friendly kiss on his cheek. He fake gushed and laughed until Tommy was standing next to us and eyeballing the situation. I lifted a Dorito chip to Tommy's mouth and asked if he wanted some. He shook his head no and fanned the chip from his face.
"Are you ready to leave?" I looked over at the clock on the wall and it said 12:30 am. I laughed and stuffed my mouth with two Doritos.
"No I am not ready. But since you are my ride, I guess we are going. Bye-bye Jacob. See you at school." Jacob raised his eyebrows at me and threw the rest of his beer back and walked away from us.
I have no clue what is going to happen here tonight. The water was turned off in the shower a few minutes ago so I know Tommy is about to emerge. I notice all the lights go out in the house. I am now on my back and staring at Tommy walk into the room with Tina. He plops her on the bed and she makes her way to me and offers her kisses. He then grabs her and places her on his recliner with a fluffy blanket. She is nestled and ready to sleep. Tommy gets into the bed and is laying on his back. I know he is cold I can see goosebumps on his arms.
"Tommy, get under the covers you're shivering." He turns out the light and quickly gets under the covers. In doing that he reaches over and spoons me. He then buries his face into my hair. Within in minutes he is asleep.
I am too afraid to ask what happened between us tonight. Besides that, this was our first weekend spent together uninterrupted. Some hiccups but nothing that can't be fixed. I am going to enjoy this moment of silence without all the conversations, and stares we get when we are out together. I move a little while in his embrace but he pulls me tighter, holding onto my belly.
I don't have to dream about the boy of my dreams tonight, because he is right here holding me and protecting me.
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